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Monday, December 22, 2014

Looking Ahead: 2015

I'm part of a group of bloggers that are doing a 12 week blog "challenge" with 12 weeks of suggested topics. I'm pretty excited, as it gets me blogging more - and blogging a bit out of my norm.

The week 1 Topic is "Power Word" - choosing a power word for 2015. I had to think long and hard about this. Hence why I'm technically writing this in week 2...oops! I went over this a few times in my head. It was hard to pick just ONE word. I know others have chosen more than one word, or phrase, but I wanted to keep it simple for once. So I settled on:


Merriam-Webster defines Trust as:

1trust

 noun \ˈtrəst\
: belief that someone or something is reliable, good, honest, effective, etc.


So why did I pick Trust as my word? It's an area I struggle in. Trusting people, trusting the process, trusting myself.

Right now, my biggest issue is in trusting the process. Trusting the surgery process. Ok well, the surgery was a great success (I can't post any pics until after I see my family in a few days... They want to be "surprised" to see my progress in the past 5-6 weeks since they saw me last). I've had very few complications - and up until this weekend, nothing I ate bothered me. (Except green beans... ). But it's the after process. Following the plan is fairly easy - but my brain has yet to catch up to the fact that my body has shed close to 100lbs (weighing in at the surgeon's office today or tomorrow ...hoping that last 6lbs is GONE!). But it's an interesting mindf*ck to not SEE the changes unless I put pics side by side most of the time. I can't seem to TRUST that it's happening. Last night, I DID see my collarbone "dips" and a hint of collarbone sticking out in a "normal" stance... so I DO have moments that I realize it's happening, but  mostly...not so much. I know it's common, but I don't like it.

I have an even bigger issue trusting this whole running process. I do it. I literally put one foot in front of the other, at a pace faster than a walk...yet I can't believe it. I'm learning that I don't know how to pace myself. I'm learning that I can run much longer in time/distance than I thought I could, especially when I remember to pace myself ... but the whole thing? Mind boggling. Not a clue why. I know what I need to do...I know how to do it, I just can't seem to trust the process.

And trusting people? Well yeah. We'll get into that later, maybe.

SO... for 2015, my word, my mantra and my focus is on Trust. I'll probably need a few reminders along the way.

3 comments:

  1. Trust…. A strong word. A perfect word. This year is going to be amazing for you. I am looking forward to tagging along via your blog.

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  2. Awesome! Trust is hard for many people! I look forward to reading about your progress!

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  3. Great word. I remember when I lost weight, I caught sight of my legs in a store windowsnd looked behind me to see who was there. It was me!

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