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Monday, August 4, 2014

Here's to Us...

Here's to us
Here's to love
All the times
That we messed up
Here's to you
Fill the glass
Cause the last few nights
Have kicked my ass
If they give you hell
Tell em to go fuck themselves
Here's to us
Here's to Us - Halestorm

This song makes me think of all the awesome women in my life. It's fitting...and if you knew my girls, you'd agree!

I think my last post (vlog) was... 40 days pre-op. Little did I know a few days later I'd find out that we had to move the date from August 11 to either the 14th or...the 7th. I wasn't waiting till the 14th, plus my parents have obligations at home that they need to be back for, and would barely have been here for 2 weeks. As has been happening lately, they are able to come down sooner, and work was ok with me moving my PTO by a few days. (Has it really been that long since I posted? Apparently...)

So today marks 2 days and a wake up until surgery. I'm not entirely sure that's sunk in yet - but I'm also on day 3 of my pre-op liquid diet. That's about as fun as it sounds. Strained cream soups, sugar free pudding, SF Jello, SF Popsicles and 30g of protein max, a day. Oh and lots of water. I thought it would be worse than it was - but I'll admit, I'm not sure I'd do this voluntarily. Although my girl Mel ... is doing it with me. Who does that? Oh right... MY awesome friends. (In her defense, she's been through it, had VSG and needed to kick-start a plateau she's been at.)

I think this is going to be wordy...oops! I have some really amazing friends. From my friend in FLA who's been checking on me all weekend to make sure I'm keeping busy and not thinking about the liquid diet, to Mel... who... well yeah. She's the catalyst for this whole process. She encouraged me to go to the info session with Dr. Fontana. My girls here locally for just being there... and of course. My best friend (let's face it, the sister I always wanted), Lee Ann. From the day I told her about this, to her doing her research, being scared, the email asking me if I was REALLY sure, to her undying, never ending support, I couldn't do this life without her. We've been through just about everything in our adult lives together - and I can't imagine doing this without her. That all being said, every now and then I'm taken back by snarky comments that come from people I care about. They are few and far between, but they always catch me off guard. I'm sure I should get used to that... as I have heard "it's the easy way out" more then once. Easy, yup, we'll go with that.

I'm already ready to be back in the gym with Joe. My last day with him. last Wednesday, was a bad ass leg day (yeah, he's mean like that)... and "before" pics. I seriously had a melt down thinking about the pics, and changed days we were doing them. Then, I cried most of the drive to the gym. In the end, it wasn't the most horrible experience I've ever had, but it wasn't all that fun, either. Joe assured me I'd want them one day, and I know he's right. I saved the pics and have looked at them exactly once. I'd be pretty lost without Joe - he's been the person to push me past my limits, to figure out that some of those limits were just in my head, he's been a therapist, made me laugh, been a friend, and most of all, supported my choice from day one. I remember asking him if it was cheating and he said absolutely not. He was one of the first people I talked to about surgery... and he's supported me from Day 1. So now my countdown after surgery is to be back in the gym, lifting.

I signed up for the Townebank 8k the day before the Shamrock Marathon in March. Um. what? Yeah... b/c we ALL know how much I love to run, so why not run 5 flipping miles. My girls are planning to do it with me, my sweet friend, Fran, who goes to the same gym said she'd be there w/ me for it (even though she's running the half the next day)... Lucky girl I am. Remind me of this when I'm thinking about running 5 miles.

Life after surgery is already starting to look busy. A 3-4 day trip to Boston & Cape Cod is in the works. a 2-3 day trip to NYC, (both work related) and hopefully ... a couple of personal trips to Fort Lauderdale and Chicago. There's been talk of a birthday trip ... as well, but now I'm not sure how to fit that all in before the end of the year AND make it home for Christmas. (Chicago wins out ... for the record! It's 15 years in the making!)

So... that's my update for now. Day 4 of the liquid diet in the books. Amazing support from all over... I'm a lucky girl... I can't say that enough.

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