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Friday, August 9, 2013

Ten Things

This is originally from December 18th, 2009. I had ended a long, long relationship a month before our wedding, and was in the process of applying for and interviewing for the job I currently have, and was living in Omaha. It's amazing how much has changed, and yet, how much hasn't.

Doing this exercise made me think. I love it when that happens...

Ten things I wish I could say to 10 different people:
1. I forgive you every day - I still do, and you know this. 

2. Thank you for sharing the time we did. This still stands, to some degree - I learned a lot, how's that for positive? 

3. You reminded me who I am, what I want/need… I’ve probably never said that to you, and I probably never will, but thank you.  I did tell you.... and then walked away, even when you asked me not to. 

4. I miss you every single day. I think about you every single day. I still miss you, everyday, Gram. Everyday. 

5. You are the best friend I could ever ask for, and more. Neither time nor distance will ever be too much for us and I’m grateful every single day to call you my best friend. My BFF will always be my BFF, and I'm blessed to have so many other amazing women in my life, as well. Blessed beyond belief. 

6. I always wonder “what if”, maybe it’s best that way. I still wonder, all the time. Distance is a bitch. 

7. I hope you find your true happiness, you have to follow your heart though, it’s time to learn how to. I'm so very happy to see that this HAS changed, that you are following your heart and finding happiness in your surroundings! 

8. You are an amazing woman, strong, beautiful and inspirational. This is so many women in my life! 

9. I honestly wonder if you even KNOW that something isn’t right. Everyone else seems to. I'm glad you realized it wasn't right...and found happiness!

10. I’m glad we found each other again. How ironic this would be. I moved 20 mins away and had a fun-filled 3 years...and now they are in FLA. Still as close as ever!!! 

And a few extra new ones: 

You give me a run for my money, pretty much every day. One day, you'll learn to let your guard down, but it will be far, far too late. 

Thank you for pushing me past limits and teaching me that limits only exist to be pushed past, sometimes. 

I am forever grateful for your friendship. There are no words to express this! 

Nine Things About Myself:

1. I love Sharpies
2. I have an irrational fear of bridges getting better..moving to HRVA, bad idea for a bridge hater! 
3. I think too much
4. I’m stubborn
5. I love my career
6. I miss VT every day
7. I love a great game of blackjack I should play this more often...no casinos here! 
8. Omaha has been good to me Omaha served it's purpose. VB is too. 
9. I have baby-fever. Bad. Oye...not any longer! 

Eight Ways To Win My Heart:

1. Make me laugh.
2. Be yourself, no matter what
3. Be confident, but don’t cross the line
4. Brush the hair from my face
5. Ask me about my family
6. Like me in spite of it all this should be #1, always! 
7. Remind me who I am 
8. Be open … to whatever may happen 

Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot:

1. My family
2. My friends
3. Vermont
4. My career
5. How truly blessed I am
6. My Grandma
7. Vegas 
The gym!!! 

Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep: Routine much? Same now.... 

1. Blow out my candles not so much anymore
2. Turn on the TV
3. Turn out all the lights
4. Find the cat
5. Pray
6. Breathe
Plug in the phone/tablet and play a game of some sort

Five People Who Mean a Lot:

1. My Parents
2. Lee Ann 
3. Amanda I haven't talked to her since this... :( 
4. My Grandparents
5. Friends 

Four Things You're Wearing Right Now: Ok well... it's summer in VB! 

1. Jeans (that are now way too big!) Shorts
2. Purple Shirt Tank
3. Vest Glasses
4. Glasses Does a hair clip count? 

Three CDs/Playlists That You Listen to Often (Currently):
1. Kenny Chesney Radio (Pandora)
2. Kid Rock Radio (Pandora)
3. Dave Matthews Anything Pandora! 

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die: I guess some things never change! 

1. Love with all I have, unconditionally 
2. Live life to the fullest, without regret

One Confession:
1. I stayed for the wrong reasons All, all the wrong ones. Without a doubt, not a tiny single doubt about this! 

Two regrets: These stay the same. But if I hadn't admitted it sooner, I wouldn't have had someone to run from. Funny how life works. 
1. Not admitting it sooner
2. Running ... 

Conclusion: This will always be my motto! 
And you learn that you really can endure you really are strong you really do have worth and you learn with every goodbye, you learn...

Now it's your turn - lets see yours! Link back here in comments and to the blog!! 

Sunday, July 21, 2013

The Only Constant, Is Change

I have touched my blog numerous times. There are plenty of posts awaiting me in my draft folder. I've thought about what to do, where to go. I started this because I'd left a world I was building with someone else. It evolved into my workout blog and then... it got stagnant. Meanwhile, life is a whirlwind all around me, and none of it seems exciting enough, interesting enough, or lacks the time to make it to my blog. Trying to change that. Trying, being the key word.

So what's new? Ummmmm. Where to start?

  • New personal trainer. Joe at Straight Edge Fitness. Joe is just.... awesome. More on that later. (In another blog)
  • Work ... that's not new. It just keeps going and getting busier and changing and challenges arise, and I still love what I do. 
  • My friend Kat moved to Miami. Boo. And My Sammy and Nicky and Alex and Robby and Zachery too. Stupid Coast Guard. I'm sure a trip to Miami will be in the works once hurricane season is over. 
  • Took a vacation, a REAL vacation, with no work, no work laptop no nothing (ok, I think I answered 5 email over 5 days!) with my friend Donna. I loved showing her Vermont, the family and relaxing. It was so amazingly relaxing. I have pics. Somewhere. 
  • Oh and then there's this little thing going on .... I will be clicking "submit" on my application to Old Dominion University this week. My request for transcripts from high school and college have been submitted and at this point, I have no reason not to do this. I'm going for a general Business Management degree - minor, if any, unknown. I'm excited, nervous and thinking I'm a little crazy, all at the same time. 
So...that's what's going on here at She's Checking Out. I'm ready to evolve the blog to something else, but I don't know how that will shake out. Maybe I really should just right about the hilarity that is my dating life? 

Leave a comment - I love hearing from new and old friends! 

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Comes the Dawn

Life moves fast, so very fast. Sometimes there aren't even words to put to "virtual paper" because the moments are gone just like that. And within those fast moving moments, there are the moments you don't ever forget, time almost stands still. The anticipation of seeing your best friend of 20+ years in 7 (SEVEN!) days, meeting a longtime friend for the first time. (Finally!), those new friendships that leave you laughing and laughing (and snorting), those are moments we all live for.  But sometimes, time becomes complacency.  Complacency becomes a slow merry-go-round ride you can't seem to bring yourself to get off. You might call it "being in a groove", that's what I did. But now I call it like it is... Over. Done. No more. Tonight is the first night of the week that I've actually sat on the couch and done nothing. I've been out with friends, having dinner, the gym. Living. It's a slow change, but it's time.

I saw a photo of a friend and thought "wow, those eyes are so unhappy compared to the "now" photos". That stopped me in my tracks, because I'd be willing to guess the sparkle that was in my eyes not all that long ago, probably isn't there now. In fact, I know it isn't. Complacency is a funny beast, isn't she?

I don't have the answers on what's next, how it's going to change, but it, things, just are. More gym. More friends. More me. This fast moving life, and the moments that make it, is changing.

Comes The Dawn

Author: Veronica A. Shoffstall
After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning 
And company doesn’t mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your roads on today,
Because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans,
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong,
And you really do have worth.
And you learn and learn...
With every goodbye you learn.

Sunday, February 3, 2013

I'm still here

January came roaring in like a lion! Work has kept me busy busy. A week long trip to Dallas for work capped off a busy but quick month!

So - a bullet point recap of the month

  • working on a better budget (getting the basics going... spending is still not where it should be)
  • organizing. organizing. organizing. I have a million fun "shoe boxes" (photo storage boxes) that I got at Michael's (on sale AND coupons!) and they have been making my life easier. Office is up next
  • crocheting. not enough, but it's fun!
  • eating better. getting into a routine. trying out new recipes (Ohhh I should totally do a Superbowl food post!)
  • just ordered my Erin Condren Life Planner
  • A week in Dallas with coworkers turned friends. Dinners, cocktails, meetings, meetings, meetings, sales training and some early flights. I have a GREAT team, and great coworkers that made a long week go by quickly 
  • Planning some blogs - so make sure you check back! 
    • True Life: I'm Not a Travel Agent (what I really do, and no, it's not a travel agent, and no I don't work IN a hotel, I work WITH hotels - well, as much as I can tell without giving away too much)
    • My Younger Self - I've seen a few people do this, and I was thinking what I'd say! 
  • Ohhhh and... did you notice the new design?? What do you think? 
And that... is 2013 in a nutshell so far! 

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