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Thursday, November 29, 2012

I am... Unwritten


Reaching for something in the distance, so close you can almost taste it. Release your inhibitions, feel the rain on your skin. No one else can feel it for you only you can let it in. No one else, no one else can speak the words on your lips. Drench yourself in words unspoken, live your life with arms wide open. Today is where your book begins. The rest is still unwritten

I read a blog post that Chelsea at Diamonds, Dog Tags and Diapers wrote for a linkup over at From Mrs. to Mama, that was, in short, a quick blurb about who you were. I read the Women Connect post a couple of times, and it struck me. Who am *I*? I've been thinking about it since yesterday, and this blog post. I mean, I know WHO I am, but I don't know, some days, who I am. (In my mind, it makes sense). I'm 36, single, the hotel world is my biz, revenue manager, trying to get in shape/healthy/lose weight, and I'm ready to start looking into the adoption process. I don't write about a lot of things I should. I don't write about who I am a lot. I've let this journey define me in a lot of ways, when it doesn't need to. I can be a hotelier, a revenue manager (and love it), be single (ugh b/c really, this dating thing... sucks!), a friend, a daughter and STILL be on a journey to fitness.

When I started this blog, I decided to call it "Checking Out, Checking In" for a number of reasons. The obvious, I've been doing this hotel thing since I was 20ish. I had also just left a city I loved (Omaha), a life I was starting with my now ex-fiance, and great friends, for Virginia Beach. I picked the Beach on a map basically knowing just one person. I wanted to be closer to home (hello last minute trip for Dad's stroke this summer), but I also wanted to be near the beach. Success, I got what I wanted. I was checking out of a life I thought was going to be MY life. New job, new city, wedding planning, and checking into a new life, that was full of promise. I realize that life is ever evolving, and I realize the journey, every single day, is unwritten. It's what you make of it, who you invite into your world, and how you continue to get back up when you fall down that matters. Every day, I find myself checking out and checking back in. Work is stressful. Friendships that were once familiar are difficult. New (amazing, wonderful) friends unexpectedly came into my world. Old friendships become stronger. And family is always there.

And now? I'm checking back in... to just do it. Work out. It's really, really NOT that hard. Do it. JUST DO IT. I'm checking back in to who I am, or who I want to be? Who I was? who knows. I know, whatever I do, it's going to be fun. There will be laughter, champagne, crafts (goodness, if you know me, you know I'm NOT crafty, but thanks to my new, dear friend Donna, that's changing!), probably tears, and adventures in working out and... the newest addition, delving into adoption. I am unwritten, and I like it.

8 comments:

  1. love it - i'm glad you joined the linkup! working out is a bitch for me. i was obsessed and liked it when i was skinny, then shit hit the fan. i'm miserable at my weight, yet i'm not doing much about it. it sucks. i'm lazy.

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    1. Me too on link up! Will be fun. I love working out, that's the funny thing. I'm miserable but not doing anything either. Time to kick my own ass.

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  2. Beautiful Meg! Keep writing. You inspire me. :)

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  3. Wow starting an adoption journey...I can't wait to hear/read more about it! Popped in from Becky's blog. Find a work out that makes you happy like a gym class or something...I have found it helps sooo much :)
    Amy
    xo

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    1. Yes - it's exciting and scary! The mom-clock is ticking though, and it's just time!

      Thanks for the comment, Amy! Can't wait to read your blog.

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  4. Love your Blog and YOU. Unwritten, ever-changing, but always YOU. Love you. Mom

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